Happy Easter!

I was trying to explain to Isabelle what Easter was all about.

You know – besides Easter egg hunts, chocolate covered bunnies and a pretty new dress.

I told her that Jesus went to Heaven but loved us so much – that He came back to all the people – healed and whole.

Her sweet innocent face nodded and said, “Oh.” And then, she asked if she could watch Kai Lan.

It’s hard to truly grasp the gravity of what Jesus did for us.

Imagine taking all the suffering, all the pain, all the hurt, all the wrong of someone around you…and instead of saying, “Well – they deserve it” – taking the blame and suffering the consequences.  You’re the one that is punished, made an example – and you take on the responsibility without any hesitation – all because you love that someone – or many someones – so much.

Jesus did that for me.  He did that for you.

“Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do” Luke 23:34

I came to terms with the hugeness of that act just recently.

One thing I’m relating to even more now – is Mary.

Jesus mother.

 Now there stood by the cross of Jesus his mother.” John 19:25

A fellow heart Mama blogged about this and I was in tears as I read her blog.

Mary followed Jesus as He bore the Cross.  She walked with Him and never left his side.  Even the men who vowed to always be there for Jesus – his disciples – left him.  But, not Mary.  She stood at the foot of the cross as she watched her son in pain, cry out, suffer.

As a mom of a special needs child – a child who has already battled through so much in his 2 months on this Earth – watching our child suffer and possibly lose my child –  is part my Cross to bear.

I’ve cried as I watched Evan in pain.

I’ve begged God to allow me to take his place.

I’ve wiped blood from his body, wiped his tears.

I’ve told him at every chance how proud I am of him for going through all of this.

I’ve told him I don’t understand why this is happening – but I know that there is something bigger than this moment – and that someday we’ll know. And no matter what, I’ll never leave him.

Mary never left her Jesus.

And Jesus never left us.

Thank you for never leaving us.