Time stood still

On October 13, 2011.

That was the day we found out Baby’s heart didn’t form correctly and that he had a cleft lip and palate.

Devastating news lead to a domino effect where my world stopped.

I didn’t understand how people were still going on.  How there was still laughter, joy, and regular normal routine things of the day.

Then I realized, people were just living.  Going on with their lives. And really, my problems were the least of anyone’s worries

So, I guess I had go on also.

But, having Isabelle made the days bearable.  She was literally a God send.  Her joy for life, her empathy, just her being her got Craig and I through the darkest days.  There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t look at her and thank God for her.  I thank Him for giving a daughter that loves life and shows us how to love life – by appreciating the small things that are often taken for granted.

She has grown up so much the past year…even the past 6 months.  And when I was working full time, I had a hard time balancing her activities, taking all the pics, and getting them uploaded to share.

And then when I was put on partial bed rest – right around the time we found out Baby’s diagnosis – I couldn’t bring myself to look at pictures from the year – to finally get them sorted and organized.

I felt guilt that I could be happy.  I felt sad for Baby – at the possibility of his life being even slightly different than his sister’s.

But, with the holiday season, I had to sort through pictures to give as gifts.  I am so glad I did.  I realized how incredibly blessed we are.  Truly, truly blessed.  We have been blessed as family to spend time together, travel together, and share in precious moments that I’ll remember forever.  We are blessed to watch Iz grow up, change from a baby, to a toddler, to a perfect little girl.

The video below is the one I made for Craig this year….from the love of his life (Iz…and me).

God is good.

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